βIt’s been a month since I’ve had no contact with her. Something which seemed impossible is happening. No texting , no calling , no stalking, nothing. But if I say ‘no missing’ then I’ll be lying to my self.
Here are a list of things which I always wanted to tell her.
But now??
Oops.
Anyway . I can post it here and hope she reads someday..
1)I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
2)I love your smile and I’ll do crazy things to put a smile on your face.
3)I envy all those who can keep u happier than me.
4)I don’t like it when u wear revealing clothes. Even if its just sleeveless. That doesn’t mean I’ll ever stop you from wearing what you like.
5)I find you the prettiest in Hijab.
6)I’ve never lust you .
7)I’ve always dreamt of spending a night with you. No. Not sex. Talking the entire night, playing ludo , listening to music, pillow fights, cuddles and hugs π
8)I don’t like it when your mom keeps too little trust on me.
9) I have and will always choose your happiness over mine.
10) I cry when ever I write about you. I write about you very often.
11) When ever I am having an amazing time, I wish you were there along with me.
12) During family functions, I wish you would tag along. I’ll be proud to introduce you to my frnds nd family.
13) I miss your good mornings nd good nights.
14) Your smile can turn a crapy day amazing.
15) I love ur pictures. Ugly or beautiful. I just love them.
16) You not being there in my life makes me feel I am unworthy.
17) There are a million occasions when I’ve felt like kissing you.
18) I had planned our future together.
19) Unlike many people who say they don’t know when they fell in love, I know when did it happen.
20) I loved it wen I asked u to stop looking at a random guy in the mall and u immediately turned towards me, smiled and said you won’t.
21) I love when I talk dirty nd then u blush.
22) I love how you are simple and yet so classy at the same time.
23) I’ve Never heard a voice sweeter than yours.
24) I really really miss talking to you.
25) Every time you’re hurt. I am more hurt than you.
26) Love how every time I am able to read what’s in your heart.
27) Love how I am able to figure out when u lie to me .
28) Thank you for trusting me always.
29) I feel so good when u share all ur big and small secrets with me. Shows how much u trust me.
30) Love how you’ve respected me always.
31) It is really easy for me to talk to you no matter what the topic is about.
32) I love when u get angry and upset for silly reasons.
33) I want to hold your hand in public while v r walking.
34) I want to protect u from all sorrows.
35) It hurts when I see you cry.
36) Going away from u hurts. Isn’t easy for me.
37) I pray for you everyday.
38) It hurt when ur mom thought that in the end I’ll think only about myself and you said your mom was right.
39) With you I feel confident. Without u , insecure.
40) I love texting you while pooping.
41) Love when there are articles about best friends and we perfectly fit in.
42) I want to go on my knees in front of you and say Lovey Dovey things to you.
43) I love your feet. Yes I’ve noticed.
44) I notice you a lot more than u can ever imagine.
45) I cry wen u cry.
46) When there’s a special occasion in ur life, even I dress well that day.
47) You’re the most important lady in my life.
48) I love your childlike nature. People think it’s childish. I knw it is childlike.
49) Crazy fan of ur innocence.
50) I am the happiest when you’re happy.
51) When ever I feel I am falling out of love with you, I see you smile and back to square one.
52) When you are angry you say words which hurt. Harsh words. Be careful, someday you’ll loose someone special in your life due to it.
53) No one else can ever understand you as much as I do.
54) When u held my hand during the horror movie. I wished the movie would never end.
55) I love to eat or drink something which u just did.
56) While I was driving nd u wer seated behind. I wished that u would stick to me a little more.
57) When I was seated behind you and you wer driving, you spoke a lot. I listened to nothing. Was all lost in your fragrance. What perfume was that man !!!
58) After your bday I realised that I am no special in your life. You’ve a hundreds of others like me. But its the magic in you which makes me feel special. It’s the magic in you which makes everyone, anyone related to you feel that they’re special.
59) It’s been more than six months since I’ve watched a movie. The one which I watched with you was my last.
60) I try avoiding to pass by your collg. I miss You too much then.
61) I work too much. Always try to keep myself occupied. Bcz when I am idle, I miss you .
62) Every Sunday morning I visit places which we visited together. Alone. Sit there and think about us for sometime.
63) I left social media, not because of my insecurities as u think. I left because I detached myself to the outer world. I left because I wanted no one to come and tell u hurtful things because of me. I left because I knew I had you and so I wouldn’t be needing more friends. Now that you’ve left as well. I feel lonely.
64) I maintain a distance from you because your mom had to hear so much from someone because of me. You where too hurt that day. I cannot see you getting hurt.
65) I like when u wear traditional clothes.
66) I love seeing straight into your eyes.
67) Just seeing you makes my day.
68) Love how you’re honest with me about anything and everything.
69) When I told you I’ve moved on, Lie. I miss you.
Love You. xo